Time to Get Real

I know there are people out there (family members) that look to this blog for pictures of Olivia and to find out the goings on of the Moon household. And that's all fine well and good....but this entry is not about that (not directly anyway). It's time for me to be real. Real about my feelings-real about what's going on-just real.

(I felt like I needed to put the disclaimer so no one is surprised by the contents of this entry.)

Now that's out of the way-where to begin....

I've been reading this amazing book Becoming More-get it and read it-I have laughed- cried- been challenged. By far one of the best books I've read in my adult life. One of the things that really stuck out with me is this quote "external achievement never equals internal acceptance." WHAT-for all these years I've been doing everything on the outside to make my life "better" when in all actuality I was trying to feel some acceptance from family, friends-anyone....but there was always something missing....and I finally got it-I realized all my achievements and doing are fleeting-God is forever. His love for me is more than anything I can ever imagine....and His acceptance is what matters! But at the same time, we are to be looking for Him, seeking Him and it's HARD!
When I look at my adult life, I see all the things I want to teach Olivia NOT to be, and am realizing, I fail at teaching her those things. I don't want her to have insecurities or hang-ups, I want her to be confident and certain of who she is in the Lord. I'm making changes daily to make sure she does.

(Just know, I am putting this out there as therapy-and I don't care who agrees or disagrees!)